Winding Down

My life over the past few weeks has been one roller coaster ride after another. The emotions springing from these times have been giving me shots of inspiration like heroin. I have filled nearly an entire notebook with poetry and the one I keep in my back pocket is slowly self destructing due to over use. It is hard to comprehend that so much has happened in only one month.

And yet, in accordance with the title, things are winding down. The nights classes of ended, the love interests have faded and I am left feeling somewhat discontented. I miss the excitement and the confusion of these prior weeks. It reminds me in fact of one stanza from a poem I posted earlier:

Suffering the loss of what never was
Wanting to be in love, addicted to the buzz
A bleeding heart to rend.

It is interesting how those words ring true. I would like to share with you some of the poems I have been writing in the past few days. They are some of my favorites so far.

The first is a love poem which actually has a happy message (an oddity for me). The last stanza may make you laugh and that is generally the point.

COPIOUS NOTES

Gorgeous gray eyes glowing
In the midst of the silver screen
My arm would reach around you,
But it seems a mile away.

I feel so comfortable
Slouching next to you,
Watching failed attempts
To interpret Hitchcock.

If I could read you like a book,
the ones you didn't read,
I'd know what I need
to comprehend the brush strokes.

Is it a sin
To wonder how your tongue tastes,
To contemplate you round face,
Taking copious notes?


Well there it is. I have to honestly say that this is the most genuine love poem I have ever written. Most don't end this happy. I did remove one stanza in order to make it more applicable. Now I have a dilemma, you see I was planning on sharing two but I cant seem to narrow it down. Ok, well..... I guess we can keep the love theme and I can share with you the king of puppy-dog, "bleeding hearts of the world unite" love poetry. It is untitled and a little unstructured.

You deserve to be in love
That's all I wanted
Was to see your gray eyes
Light with adventure

You don't need friends
You need him
The one that can get inside you
Help reveal your feelings

I thought it was me
A few times
The way you looked at me
Those eyes

I admit
I wanted to be the one
That made you happy
That made you smile

But I resigned
Consumed by insecurity
And doubt
But this is not about me

You deserve to be love
And if it's not me
Then find him, please
I want you to
Not because I love you
But Because I want you to be in love


Well that is sure one cheesy poem eh? I am sure I won't live that one down for a while. I promise that next post will be something other than love poetry. Thank heaven it's winding down.